When reading is worthless, and experience is valuable

29 11 2008

I practically learned this world from books.  My parents didn’t teach me too much things substantial, except to not break rules, to not be corrupt, and to be decent to others, which I guess are unbelievably substantial.  But I learned about the science of happiness from Psychologists, the ways of American mannerism from books, and the many histories of this scarred nation also from books.  Books are my soul and blood, my sources of not only knowledge, but ways of living and advises of action.

At some point, though, I must have gotten sick of absorbing information, but never experiencing them.  And I realizes today, that I need to stop reading, and start experiencing – all the triumphs and failures that have made me cry in books – I want to experience them first hand.  Right now.





the Twilight Obsession

25 11 2008

I have a secret I should admit: I am way beyond teenage puberty, but I am also obsessed with Twilight.

Call me emotionally immature, but there is a reason this sappy romance novel stroke the cords of countless teenagers (and their mothers).  To those who don’t understand why Twilight has gotten so much attention, and to those who don’t understand why they can’t take their mind off of Edward Cullen, let me introduce…

Top 5 reasons why Twilight is OMG AWESOME:

5.  It’s the classic forbidden love story, torn between, literarily: love and death, sex and kill.  That fine line is blurred to the extreme, and we love walking on it. 

4.  It’s about that girl we can identify with: the girl who thinks she is not pretty enough, who hates playing the manipulative, complicated games of human interaction.  She is simple, unpretentious, sarcastic, and quite lonely, until her other half arrives.  We like Bella, because we are Bella in one way or another, except still waiting for love.

3.  It’s about that perfect boy who is great at everything – who is fancied by all but only loves his one and only.  It is about a guy with a tortured soul, a guy who struggled for us and would sacrifice anything for us. Too bad Edward Cullen doesn’t exist in this time and age, because hot looking guys are all jaded. 

2.  Robert Pattinson may not be a gentleman, per se, but he is certainly Edward Cullen in many ways, which is why Twilight has gotten so much more attention – any other guy would not have hyped this film up as much as he did.  For one, he is not jaded – the guy cracks jokes and constantly talks about how he doesn’t have a girlfriend, he is never that hot guy in school, and he hasn’t gone on dates for awhile.  It is difficult to believe that a guy as handsome as Robert Pattinson would have trouble with girls… but whether or not he is being truthful or just playing the part, it is working, it is getting teenage girls more excited than ever before to listen to this equally tortured artist talking about his oh-so-tortured life. Oh the irony.

1.  Stephanie Meyer is no JK Rowling, and truth be told, I didn’t really like the 3 books after Twilight, and I believe subsequent sequels of Twilight will not be as big as this one.  But Twilight is one of a kind.  I remember the first time reading Twilight, I truly felt as if I were Bella, getting excited, upset and confused as she delicately explores the world of Edward Cullen.  Twilight touched my nerve.

So there you go: love it, hate it, Twilight is HOT. 

 

Robert Pattinson

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. Sexiness without the nudity is even sexier





I’m trying to find a job

22 11 2008

I’m trying to find a job, because I’m bored.  And after much effort trying to redefine my life and bring purpose and meaning into why I exist, I am so far failing to achieve the kind of satisfaction I crave for.

I don’t know what I want in life, what is it that makes my heard pump (people and career, both).

I don’t know who I am. Is this the so-called quarter life crisis? I think so.

Oh Gosh, what am I going to do?





How to find a relationship

22 11 2008

The one lesson I learned in life: is to be yourself.  Not humble, not confident, but who you truly are: a combination of both.

It’s a lesson that’ll get you jobs, relationships, friends, and everything else in between.

Be real.  And in a city with the fasade, being real is difficult!





What would you do with $3.1 billion?

20 11 2008

The University of Michigan got $3.1 billion dollar since 2000 due to a major fundraising campaign called the “Michigan Difference.”

I want to add that as an alumni from the University of Michigan, I love that school and it forever changed my view on the world in a positive way that I probably will never receive anywhere else.  But I also know from first hand experience that Michigan gives very limited financial aids to students – and we’ll see in light of this especially vast amount of money they’ve just received – how are they going to justify consistently raising tuition.

Most of student aids come in the form of loans.

This is especially true for students who are out of state – Michigan has the highest tuition rate of any public University in the US but gives the least amount of money compared to not only private Universities, but other comparable Public Universities such as Berkeley.  That, unfortunately, is also the Michigan Difference.

There is an non-existing support system for students who are not #1 or #2 in their class but still are working hard and achieving great grades. One can count the # of substantial scholarships they give to Michigan students on two hands. The examples they use to say “so and so received a full scholarship thanks to your generous donation” applies to only a handful out of thousands.  This is not aid.

My parents make a combined income of $60,000 a year and I was labeled “middle class” and received no scholarships and about only 10% in the form of financial grants, compared to 80% I received from Boston University and 100% from my in-state college.   My family had to pay over $1400 a month, a huge burden that I don’t know if I should go through had the chance to do it again, despite this great education.

One year my dad’s monthly payment was late because the check got rebounded, the University disenrolled me within that same week and would not enroll me in any class and threatened to kick me out of my dorm if I don’t send in a check within the same week.  By the time the check came in, all the classes I wanted to take have been filled and books were sold out.

Given the fact that this University claims to be a nonprofit organization that receives money tax-free and are supposedly serving students’ interests first, I see these messages as hypocritical to reality.  The reality is that this University is being run like any other cold-blooded businesses – they put money first before anything else “sympathy” or “humane” exceptions are not allowed under this structure.

Therefore, when they do get this $3.1 billion dollars, I can guarantee you that the vast majority of that money is going toward a better building for the administrators, for research facilities that really don’t serve the student body directly (such as the UM Hospital), a private dining room for athletes, for Mary Sue Coleman to travel to Africa, and for professors to conduct more research.

This money , however, is NOT going to go toward lowering the already ridiculous tuition and other fees they charge (tuition has been raising at an average of 10% per year for 5 consecutive years), it is not going to upgrade the crappy career center that doesn’t get students jobs, it is NOT going to give more scholarships to those that wish to travel abroad for a summer but can’t afford to, and it is NOT going to lower your books or decrease your expensive housing cost either.

So yes, Michigan received $3.1 billion, but like all companies, it is going to serve its own interests first, and its constituents, the students, probably NEVER.

Mary Sue Coleman - President of Michigan

“As the president of the University of Michigan, I don’t care if you can’t pay for your tuition, I only care about the bottom 0.5% of the poorest and top 0.5% of the smartest, that way Michigan an be called both prestigious and diverse – when in fact it may be neither.  Oh, and I’m definitely going to continue sleeping in 5-star hotels when I travel around the world promoting Michigan, whatever that means because there is really no oversight on whether or not these trips actually help promote Michigan, and I may or may not be required there, but oh well, I just loves to travel too much.  Screw biochemistry, I am a Politician!”





Obama Nation

11 11 2008

It’s been a week of madness and bliss.  The election of Barack Obama is inevitable, but nevertheless unbelievable.

It’s touching not only because a Black man is now the President of the United States, but also that hope won over fear, honesty triumphed lies, democracy got back its power, and intelligence beat connections.

People all over the world rejoiced because the good guy, the underdog, the oppressed, the man from a low income group with an abandoned father and a confused identity, stood up to himself and said, “I am going to be strong despite my setbacks in life” and stood up to the bully and said, “enough.”

Barack is like the most of us, and yet he is so extraordinary, which means that each one of us has the ability within us to be even greater than what we are now.  And that is inspiring.